Busy Busy Busy...

Yes.. I know.. I have been neglecting my Blog.. for my 4 followers.. I am sorry.. I suck sometimes..

Truth be told.. I wrote an extremely fabulously funny blog and well true to form, I somehow managed to delete it before saving it and posting it.. Yeah.. I know.. SHOCKING... this happens to me all the time with yahoo mail. I write lovely inspiring emails and then poof.. gone.. argh.. so then the email turns out something like this..

I hate f*cking Yahoo.. it just lost my last email. So How's your day.. I am too aggravated to write anything additional...

I am sure that most of my faithful followers have gotten an email like that at some point from me.

Anyway.. lots has been going on in my little bubble.. I finally.. yes FINALLY filed for divorce.. yay.. I know.. most people thought I WAS divorced or had already filed.. but NOPE.. So here's the funny thing.. I dragged my feet for so long getting the process going, and when I finally get to the last mile.. I can see the finish line.. I get that extra burst of energy and my sprint turns into a full on run.. I can't respond quick enough to the mediator.. I get the final papers signed.. rush to the courthouse the next morning.. and thats when instead of the tape I have to run through to claim victory.. I run smack dab into the brick wall. It was like a screeching halt.. errrrr.. SMACK.... My visit to the courthouse was something comical. Ever imagine yourself on candid camera because the events that are happening are so outrageous they can't possibly be real. Yeah, that pretty much sums up my trip to the Suffolk County Family and Probate Courthouse. It was so great to see my hard earned tax dollars at work. Wait.. Work? What's that? It was a shame that I had to actually make people do their jobs. I know that reading a magazine and pretending not to see me standing in line for 10 minutes takes skill... I mean heck.. I have no where else to be. I dont need to go to my job that pays YOUR salary. I can stand here all day.. and well.. yup.. pretty much I had to. So I finally get acknowledged.. which coincidentally coincided with the completion of the magazine reading... I know.. weird huh? I guess since having worked since I was pretty much 13, consistently... I can't tolerate people that don't give their all to their job. You know what.. if you hate your job that much.. QUIT.. find something else... but PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE stop subjecting me to your indifference. Do your job, and do it well. That's it.. it's plain and simple. Don't make me stand there, because you can.. don't make me sit in your cubby while you leaf through pages of my separation agreement and read some parts of it, because you can.. but anyway.. I digress.. I got my court date finally for my divorce.. and because I dragged my feet.. karma came and bit me right in the ass.. THE EARLIEST court date I could get for my divorce.. is September.. I just laughed.. really? September.. Now if I lived in Middlesex county, I could do same day.. interesting.. yeah.. so.. coming from the girl who took a year to go through mediation, and file.. I guess waiting 4 months isn't so bad.. but it was the point of it.. I am so ready to move on.. move forward.. onward and upward.. that I wanted this done.. so on September 9th, I get to return to the courthouse.. stand in front of a judge and get granted permission (oh yeah.. I am not even really divorced at that point.. ) to become divorced. My divorce won't be final for 120 days AFTER the judge says it's ok. So.. I count ahead.. 4 months from September 9th.. Oh what will the date of my finalization be.. Oh yes.. wait for it... January 9th.. and when is my birthday.. yup.. the 12th.. so.. Happy Birthday to ME!! :)

I thought the best birthday gift I got was this past birthday when the douchebag I was kinda sorta, well apparently not really at all seeing walked out of my life without so much as a see ya.. just disappeared (I have that affect on people.. I make them disappear.. I think I am a magician). I was hurt, but then I realized.. he gave me the best gift ever.. leaving.. so to top off that great gift... this coming birthday.. I will be legally and FINALLY divorced..

And that's a good thing!!

I feel kindof stuck.. Like I can't fully commit myself to someone else.. not that anyone has been worthy anyway.. Yes.. Hindsight.. IS 20/20... (why can't forsight or insight be 20/20 as well?! It would make things soooo much easier..)

Well this post is all over the place.. just like me.. I have lots of thoughts running around.. so sorry to have subjected you all to my randomness..

but things are good.. life is good.. I really do have such an amazing support system, and I am forever grateful for that..

So the journey continues.. and as long as I keep getting up in the morning with my head held high... I am doing fine..

and oh yeah.. we got a kitten.. (just had to throw in the randomness..)

Thanks for reading.. Until next time..