Laundry list....

Some people have a bucket list.. me?  I apparently have a laundry list. And NO not THAT kind of laundry list. I prefer to pretend THAT kind of laundry doesn't exist, especially as it piles up...anyway...   my laundry list is about what I want in my next life..  ok, so not really my next life.. but my next mate..  since I have what I essentially call a second chance, I have been asked a ton of times, what it is I am looking for.  I guess saying I want it all, the whole package, that's a bit of tall order... but I have been thinking about this alot lately.  Especially since the people I had been keeping company with, were not ummm...  even close to this list...   Not to take anything away from them.. I have learned a lot about what I want and don't want in my next life. 

So this is what I have come up with..  (for now)

• I want to be the first thing you think about in the morning, and the last thing you think about at night
• I want someone that thinks about me during the day
• Someone that can't wait to talk to me or see me
• Someone that can't keep their hands off of me
• Someone that when they look at me, they get butterflies.. and the same with me for them
• Someone that is comfortable wearing a suit as well as a pair of jeans
• Someone that can have fun going out to a fancy dinner, or staying in playing scrabble
• Someone to cuddle up with on the couch watching a movie
• Someone that can keep me on my toes
• Someone to call me on my bullshit (and there is plenty of that...)
• Someone that when I am on their arm is proud to have me there
• Someone that can't wait to take me around and introduce me to his friends
• Someone that looks at me like I am the hottest girl in the room, even when I am a mess
• I want a partner, an equal
• Someone that can share the work equally
• Someone that knows when I am having a bad day, and that means, a nice glass of wine, take out and chocolate
• Someone that I can make happy
• Someone that makes me happy
• Someone that makes me laugh uncontrollably and does his best to never make me cry
• Someone to go to bed with at night, to lay in the crick of his arm, listening to him breathing
• Someone to wake up with in morning
• Someone to kiss my head and tell me things are going to be ok

I know...  Pretty simple right?  I know it's a tall order, and why shouldn't it be?  Why shouldn't I deserve the best?  I am not a Pioneer, I don't need to be settling.

I know I am a tough sell.  A single mother to 3 kids. I know this is a lot for someone.  And trust me, over the past 2.5 years, I have had these very things thrown in my face.  I know these people weren't right for me, and that we were never meant to be.  They were a mere learning experience for me.  A lesson.  They were in my life to teach me that these are the people I don't want.  That there is someone out there that can look passed my crazy, that will adore my kids and wants to build a life with me.  Is it harder now?  Yes.  But I have hope that in the end, it will be worth it.  That all that I have gone through, I will get the big payoff in the end..

When all is said and done..  I want the fairytale...

And I am still hopeful that someday my prince will come.  When I least expect it.  He will come and sweep me off my feet.

I guess for now I keep on keeping on. All the battle scars I have will have been worth it.  They have made me stronger, if not a little more skeptical, but definitely stronger and more aware.

And I figure if I put my order out in to the universe, it might be fulfilled and returned..