My beautiful and amazingly talented daughter is finishing up the week in her first play. She has done great. I am so proud of her.
I have always loved the story of the Wizard of Oz. I remember as a kid watching it with my family. Laying on the floor of the living room watching it together. It makes me happy that my kids enjoy this movie as much as I do.
I love the story of the Wizard of Oz for what it teaches us about family and friendships. We sometimes take these things for granted. I know I do. I take my family for granted. Without them, I wouldn't be as strong as I am today. They have supported me in everything. While I might not have always liked to hear what they have said to me, and about my actions, but they were always there for me no matter what. They have loved me unconditionally. Just because. No ulterior motives, nothing. When I have needed help with anything they were there. There was no concept of, I will do this for you, but only if... or what can I get in return from you for doing that. I am forever grateful to have such a supportive family. And my friends. I know I am lucky to have the friends I do. While some friendships don't last, they are not meant to. I have my core group that love and support me. I have had a difficult time over the past couple of years with learning who my true friends were, and what it meant to have them. There are some relationships that do not stand the test of time. As much as you might want them to, someitmes they just end. And I am learning that, that is ok. I learned alot about the character of some of the people that I have confided in. Only to find out that what I confided. My deepest darkest secrets have been told to others. And that hurts to find that out. I have a hard time with trust. My husband betrayed me and my trust. And I have been working very hard to get trust back. I guess I had only thought that a guy would betray me. But when you find out that a friend, someone that you told your inner most secrets to, decides that its ok to tell those to someone else. Well thats a big betrayal. And I am not sure how easily it is to recover from that. I will never get the person that feels the need to knock someone else down because it makes them feel better. I guess I am still so naieve in life. I expect people to live up to a certain standard, and I guess that is where I am wrong. Not everyone reads from the same moral code book. And that's fine. To each his own. I don't begrudge anyone, but please, just keep me out of your business.
Ok, so that was a bit off on a tangent. I have so many thoughts swirling around in my head lately. I have come to lots of realizations in the past few weeks. Things that have shaken me yet again to my core. Things that are causing me to re-evaluate a lot of things, people and relationships.
For now I need to go back to the simple things in life. My family, my friends. I have so much good in my life that I sometimes fail to see it by all the negative that happens.
It has been such a nice week going to see my daughter and nephew in their first play. watching them through practices. Seeing them blossom into their roles.
I love watching the performances and listening to the message of the Wizard of Oz. There is no place like home.
Some of the lessons learned in the play:
-Don't take your family for granted
-True friends will always have your back, no matter what. Even in days/times it doesn't seem like it, but a true friend will always be there to stand up for you and guide you
-Courage - we are all braver than we think
I will close this post with a few of my favorite quotes:
A heart is not judged by how much you love; but by how much you are loved by others.
Hearts will never be practical until they can be made unbreakable.
If I ever go looking for my heart's desire again, I won't look any further than my own backyard, because if it isn't there, I never really lost it to begin with.
