Going down the rabbit hole...

It's snowing..  AGAIN...  for the 100th time this winter.  Ok, maybe not 100 times, but seriously, it might as well be. 

I am getting really sick of the snow.  Like really sick of it.  I hate looking out at the never ending piles of snow.  I feel trapped.  I hate driving down the street in which formerly 2 lanes are reduced to 1 at best.  I feel like the walls are closing in on me. 

I feel depressed.  It's not good.  I just don't want to do anything but go to bed and wake up when all the snow has melted.  I know it's not a reality.  But it sure is something that sounds appealing. 

I know that in a few months everyone will be complaining about how hot it is. 

I hate making plans to have dinner with friends only to have it canceled, yet again, by snow.  The girl time I so enjoy has been taken from me.  I don't like it.  I really don't.  I need to be social.  I need to be able to go out and do what I want and not feel trapped.

I feel like Alice, starting down the rabbit hole and not knowing how to get myself out of it. 

The piles of snow that I keep trying to dig myself out of and it just keeps getting piled up higher and higher, bothers me because it's a reminder of my life and my financial situation.  The more I try to dig myself out of the debt I am in, the higher the piles and mounting bills get.  It's too much for me to take at times. 

It's not enough that I have the mental reminder of my dire situation, but now I have a visual.  Great.. thanks.. 

UGH..

Well I've got not much to say today.  I am fighting like crazy not to fall in to a real depression, but it's getting tough.  Something has got to give..